Such an addiction

Blogging is SUCH an addcition.

Currently im in some stoopid history class and we have to work on this project, but nah. i felt like blogging.

haha some idiot cant telll the difference between a proctractor and a compass. im like laughing my ass off.

i m sitting at the back where the couches are so nobody can see what im doing. yeah i know the secret blogger.

From school only a few people can see my blog. i mean know about it. Thats why i like this so much. People judge. and its kind of wierd. I mean noone not even my bestie knows the deep side of me everyone thinks im this carefree girl. i am but i have a different side. And it kind of pisses me off when people judge you just AFTER ONE FREAKING EVENT. i mean seriously. 7th grade was a lonnng time ago.

Im hungray. damn. 10 more minutes. i want food. NOW.


winter is here. im happy about it. i like the cold. infact my normal body temperature is around 96.5 degress. im serious. whenever i check it its that temperature. even the doc said. she was like. yeah.

i like it when its cold. easy to run and its not giving you headaches all the time. plus i like wearing my uggs cuz theyre comfy.

I know today will be a good day. Ugh my friend is asking me what im doing.

gtg
Loveyou
byeeee.

Confusing mind.

People say you should listen to your brain.

And i made the mistake of doing that. 

Sometimes your heart and your brain have different views. Im the idiot who listens to her brain and fucks her life up.

currently im in the middle of having a migraine. And i feel like im dying.

anyways. Your brain states the logical. Your heart states whats right for you. What you really wanna do. So why not listen to it? why Not?


This is the shortest post evar, i gtg
byee
karishma

Beauty of life.

Hi. so i thought i blogged today but i didnt so im gonna blog because i feel like it.

and im discovering something i love other than music.

Life is beautiful. Thats why i write about it. And here i'd like to note, the word "beautiful" in my world is not EVER meant to be described the way how someone looks.

You don't look beautiful. You feel beautiful. You are beauty, in you, inside.

If you wanna describe how someone looks, say gorgeous or pretty. not beautiful. in my opinion.

There comes a time in life when something really shakes you down. or changes what you ever believed in. or how safe the world you thought was. Turns out its time to grow up, kar.

D. E. A. T. H.

The first time ever someone left this earth who i knew very well was my great grand mom. in 2008. I was so lost. i didnt know what it meant when someone died.

Until i actually thought about it today.

i'm still not sure about what i think about death, all i know is
1. Im not afraid of it.
2. its not scary.

and its all out. now. i wrote a letter to her. i wanted to know her well. i wanted to cry. i wanted her to know that i loved her.
i hope she does now.

im strong again. wrapped up in a strong soul with a big heart and powered by love.
love you
 - karishma.

Think Big. The Power of you.

I haven't blogged in like FOREVER.

Now, i've talked a lot about the secret.

I guess I'm gonna talk some more.

The world is made up of what you believe. if you don't believe somethings real. its not. simple as that.

So basically what you think brings out what you see today in life. You control your life by your thoughts, and by changing them, you can change your life. whoopee. you just discovered the greatest thing ever. You just discovered why your life is the way it is.

Some people have very low self esteem...And it usually stays that way, cause they don't know what to do. The only reason why they aren't (for example) pretty, is because they dont think they are.

Alot of times i hear my friends say, im fat. or im ugly. or im stupid. or im too skinny. or blahblahblah. All i can say is that they're not. except then they go on and argue about it. And thats the point where i cant help them. Instead of saying stuff like that, can't you JUST FOR ONCE change your thoughts around. Change them into: "Nobodys perfect. and i like myself the way i am." change those feelings of hate and ugliness towards yourself to feelings of love. The highest power in the world, like Leo Tolstoy said:
"Love is life. All, Everything that i understand, i understand only because of love. Everything is, everything exists only because of love"

Love is pretty darn powerful. Its the most powerful thing on this planet. It makes you live. Its the reason of life. Give love, get love.

So, i love you.
very much.

- Karishma

Eat, Pray, Love.

Yes. i know what your thinking.

call me crazy. call me weird. but i love this book, and i just started it.

Now why is a person like me reading this book? well cuz...i dont know. im deeep and light at the same time. i think i like me.

and i havent blogged in such a long time. ugh. school is the shit.

yes so back to eat pray love.

Its about a woman who's in a bad place and turns her life around. kind of describes my life ish. many people in my school saw it (the movie. im reading the book. books are always better) and said it was boring. huh. I MEAN SERIOUSLY THATS LIKE CALLING ME BORING. (trust me im super hyper. im not boring)  but anyways.

i like it cause of its deepness and philosphy. i like how she is the love within her. how you can be your own friend and lift yourself up in need.

love is within you. it lies there. its within every single person in this universe. Hate is temporary. Love is constant. Love is your soul.

so give a little love to yourself today.

till then
xxxx
karishma.

Wasting time.

Hey.

So there has been some drama involving Veronica here, so yea im sorry. or i dont know whats going on.

yea so. i came across a group on fb called "Like this if you have wasted your time on someone". and yes i have. I realized that some people aren't worth your time. Or are just there to provide you with struggles, but i realize, as i write this, these hurdles are here to make me stronger. thanks to whoever is doing this (if you will read this), and for me, its actually kind of true. i have become stronger, and different. I changed. I don't take shit from people anymore now. i stopped a loong time ago. 

and im done being sorry. im not sorry for anything in life. jeez. you know what. last post i was talking about stella so i guess im just gonna be frank and open about this shit like i normally am. stella (if thats what her real name is) claims to know veronica here, and she somehow found out about my blog.

so i dont know what to believe here.

i dont trust people easily, and get grudges and get mad and shit easily. thats just me. so maybe thats why i dont believe your real stella. and once trust (with me) is broken, i cant ever trust you again. so yea. 

sorry for this awkward post, back to normal self by tom. 

till then

xxxx

karishma

Morning (:

Hey Fellers. 

so i was just finishing my morning streches which have calmed me down greatly and im in the mood for blogging.

so i think i need to tell y'all a story.

So a couple of days ago, my friend was chatting with me on fb and was like "my friends gonna add you, and im gonna go off now"

so this person named stellarbellar hudgens adds me. And im like Hey! Kara told me to add you right? and then we go into a conversation and this person tells me that she is Vanessa Hudgens (you know the girl in high school musical) little sister. And im like wow really, and she says her proof was her twitter lilstellahudgens. Now, she didnt send me a link or anything or did anything else like that, and i checked with my friend, and she was like yea shes real. (and oh btw this friend of mine is not in the same grade as me so she has other friends which i will tell you abt later)

so a couple of days later im chatting with one of my friends who recently moved away and she was like "trust me shes fake" and then i was talking to another guy and hes like "none of them are real"

so i decide to look through her pictures, and something seemed really fishy. So, i told my friend (the one who wasnt in the same grade as me) and this bitch (a friend of my friend) checked my friends texts and was like "karishma doesnt think stella is real..." and then she TELLS THE FAKER. 

so then we have this whole hate convo on fb and she said really mean things (even tho shes never met me, and she asked me if i kissed a girl once.... WTF? im kinda creeped out now) and all these hate emails, and then i go searching on google for pictures. turns out she had been fooling us the whole time. biggest faker ever. 

but then (here comes the deep part) my parents always warned me of who i talked to and what info i revealed on the internet. im revealing alot here but not everything, and i know i didnt listen to them but, people should be allowed to make their own mistakes, otherwise you never learn, and You shouldn't be afraid to make mistakes in life. you'll never learn. 

And just take it as an experience. not everyone can have a perfect life, and some people go through some hard times, and some happy times. because everyones different and everyone has different experiences in life. But whatever experience there is, take it as a lesson for the future. So that you dont do the same thing again and even if you do, everyone makes mistakes right? 

So yea. im hungry. immma go eat food

loveyouguysmorethanevarrr 

xxxxx

karishma

p.s. im blogging alot now because i have BREAK (: but starting monday not so many blogs :/ hs is tough. hahah <3

At home all day.

So i decided to write another blog. idk why im addicted. to writing. I THINK I MIGHT BE FINDING ANOTHER LOVE IN LIFE! YYAYAYAYAYA!

im soo hyper right now, and its NIGHT here in delhi. (oh wait i never talked abt this) Ya used to live in boston whole life moved to delhi go to american school here. pretty much my whole life story summed up in a few words. yes i was sad, but im over it. atleast im on the same planet. it doesnt really matter. lifes good (:

Music i like: any that songs that sound good to my ears. im pretty excited about taylor swift coming out on october 21 i think :)

i know my posts are usually deep. Life is deep. but (here i go again) But, take it lightly. if you take life to seriously then you get depressed, and sad, and blah blah blah. so point is, dont get mad too much (VERY BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH), dont get sad too much, but be happy too much. its like bobby mcferrin and dont worry be happy (:.  and i have proof bobby mcferrin wrote that song. Bob marley was amazing but sorry to break it to ya fellers, it was bobby mcferrin who wrote the song.

They just looked alot the same. and were both jamaican.

i have to find a permanant way to sign off.

this is probably my shortest post evar.

till then
xxxxx
ilymorethanever
karishma <3

A lilttle bout me, the secret, and accepting yourself.

I was feeling good today so i decided to write another post. I have so much to write i dont know how to write it all out.

I have a confession. Through these blogs, you guys see the deep side of me. Everyone at school, see's the light side of me. The talkative (ive gotten kicked out have class many times for talking to much), crazy, ferrari loving girl. I don't know much about what people think of me. It doesn't really matter. Only what matters in life is what i think of myself. In my first post i mentioned your best friend is a person who knows you inside out. I have a bestie except in this world, im the only person who knows myself inside out. I dont know why. Im not the "express your feelings" type. in fact i find it hard to say to my mom i love her, i dont think i have said it ever since i was 7. Maybe thats why nobody knows me inside out. I tend to hide things from people, for example the big question of what you gonna do as a job when you're out of high school or going to college. If someone says it seriously, i say i dont know and if its like a joke or lightly then i say im gonna run away at 17 to broadway. But the truth is i want to be a singer. Maybe an actress sometime later. Like musical theater. Broadway ish. I love music more than anything, music is my life. I know alot of people say that but i really want music as a career. so bad. only thing i ever wanna do.

I dont know why im saying all this on my blog. i just felt like i needed to let it out. and sometimes telling someone you dont know something is easier. They can't judge you because they don't know you well enough.

i recently read a book called the secret, some of you may heard of it. Its about the power of positive thinking and how your thoughts can change your world, and how you can get what you want by simply believing. It states that a person is a magnet and attracts things it thinks about, and what you give is what you get, and the fact that if you love yourself, you will recieve love from others.

i like to think this book is true and i have this whole long theory behind it. I have a theory nothing is real. and ill post it with evidence after this post when i have time.

but for the most part, i like to think its true because it helps you think positive, it somehow turned me into a better person. brought me to a better place from where i was. (which i will post when im ready to tell you)

some people question the what if. i do too, except i wouldn't like to imagine myself any different. where i have lived and what i have suffered and seen, has made me who i am today and im the person i love. i know it may sound snobby and shit, but a person shouldn't hate him or herself. they should love themselves but not in a snobby way. They should be happy with themselves. so what i think im saying here is a person should accept themself for who they are, and who cares what the world thinks? fuck the world. Be who you wanna be.


tellme what you think. i wanna know.

love you peeps more than ever
xxxxxx
karishma

second post. fate.

I'm pretty sure someone read my last post but didn't bother to comment on it so im gonna write a new post every few days. gonna keep on tryin. i mean i just started yesterday, so i guess i have high expectations.

Today, im gonna talk about life again. as usual. 

Fate. Destiny. whatever you'd like to call it. I was recently having a discussion with my friend and she doesn't believe in fate. (you know practical people) and i do, and for the weirdest reason ever. Your life is fully your responsibility. You control your own life (mostly (disempowerment)) but sometimes, i like it when i know i don't have control of things, that stuff just happens because its suppose to, hence fate. Everything happens for a reason. i guess a practical person might say its coincidence, or give practical reasons, which is good, to be practical. But its that theory that makes life interesting, and somehow, us as humans believe in it, becuase its easy. Its hard looking for answers to questions all the time. yea i know many people will agree and disagree (so like i said before) DONT SCREAM AT ME LIKE THIS.

Somehow believing in fate is like believing in god. Like people are like "just leave it to god". So i think the reason i believe in fate is because, you gotta believe in something that you can't hear touch or see. You gotta learn to daydream imagine, because many dreams turn into reality. 

Whenever i meet someone, i think its cause it had to happen. i had to meet them because they were somehow important to me and somehow changed something in my life, or defined it. i always like to think everything happens for a reason. 

im gonna sign my messages off with something to do with love, because in  my world when you give love, you get more love back. 

love you more than ever <3

xxxxxx

 - karishma

Hi, My first blog ever. Real Friendships

I decided to start a blog today. i don't know why. I just really wanted to know what it was like having a blog, out there like millions others and somehow im expecting someone to at least read a couple of words. And im a hoper. I don't really think thats a word so im gonna say a person who hopes. Like all humans, im a very different person then someone else on this blog, so im hoping someone different like me will read this. And im rambling now.

lets get down to business.

sometimes i question friendships in life. What it actually means to be friends with someone, and how it works. I don't know if many people think about this, or dont want to, or its something to deep to go into and just leave it because it gives them weird feelings. I guess i could say im number 3 on this list. yea.

but what i mean is, (im in highschool just so you know, so im not some super old moron) i feel that these days... that there isnt any real friendship; everyone or most of the people want popularity, and everyones just too lost within each other, because they want something out of a friendship, i mean everyone does but, still. 

what im  trying to say is, a true best friend is someone you can tell everything to, who knows you inside out, and they like you for who you are the bad and the good things. So why cant you be friends with anyone, no matter who they are?

is it because people are afraid to try? is it because were to comfortable to try, being in the same friendships for years? or maybe its fate? Or maybe its cause people closed their eyes. to teh world.

i know people may have different views so dont scream at me. i wanna know what you guys think.

oh and btw most of my blogs will be philosphical. about life. yea i like to question things. im a crazy wierd high schooler ;) :p

till then,
xxxx
- karishma